I think all my energy's dried up. I don't know what's happened to me. I'm too lazy to even write in my journal. I haven't written in it since like December. Not good.
I'm so thankful for my sister. Since she came home yesterday I've been blessfully reminded of why it's so nice to have a sibling, especially an older one. And not just because she can take the load off me washing dishes and washing the rice and petty stuff like that. No, she's always there to talk to, which is good especially now that I've become too lazy to write in my journal. Because I know more than anyone know how dangerous it can be to hold things in. Yesterday we were watching Numbers together and instead of paying attention we just sat there talking and stuff. About everything. Everything and anything. It was such a nice feeling, to crack through a layer of myself and feel fresh again. I miss that, having a sister to talk to whenever. It made me realize that no matter how close you are to home, it's still different. I've realized that staying here for college is still a new experience, cause we're gonna be a whole lot more independent. I'm excited for that, but a bit worried, too. I don't know how to handle that extra responsibility though. But I do think it'll be nice to break out of another layer of my shell. I don't think I do that often enough, and maybe one day I'll hatch out completely as one awesome person. We'll have to see.
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older siblings...there's something there. but kannan and i just had a dance off in the study while my parents had this dinner party outside and this aunty walked in on us dancing all crazy and i just fell on the floor laughing.
i'm really looking forward to the independent thing. i like the idea that i'm growing up.
Older siblings. You just can't ever have enough of them :) I loved reading this post because it reminded me of my brother and I. Siblings are so fun to talk to sometimes, and they can understand things so much better than parents.
Start writing in your journal again Kels! It helps so much :) And you never know, one day you're going to wonder what happened on like May 14, 2006 and you can just flip to that journal page and read.
If you ask me, you all ready are a completely awesome person. But I get what you mean about breaking through your layers. It's like breaking through your fears and inhibitions so that you can be the person you really are.
I also know what you mean about holding things it. Its not healthy, and it's good that you talked to your sister and got stuff off your chest.
You are going to have a blast in Boulder, I know you will.
hahaha, for some reason i read triveni's post as Borders and i was like wth?! what's kelsey doing, having a blast at borders...without me?
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