So I May Have a Little Addiction

It's 9:30pm in the middle of the week when I normally should be sleeping, but thanks to a well-timed "resident's retreat," and a fortunate patient load, I get tomorrow morning off, meaning there's no need to try to sleep at 8:30- a major miracle, especially since Wednesdays are supposed to be a long day- 5am to 7pm.
So far surgery has not been nearly as bad as I expected. Yes, getting up early is still an unfortunate reality, but I did get most of the long weekend off, and I get random days off in the middle of the week too if I take call. However, as a result of having the lovely weekend off, I may or may not have, ahem, spent a little money. Window shopping and shopping in general sort of got the best of me, and I caved in.

Labor day goodies

Although I am proud to say that every single thing I got was on sale and I could justify most of my items, they were still what I put into the category of "fluff". I went out with some clear goals in mind, such as buying myself a stress-reduction workbook with the hopes that I would be able to try to focus my time better in the loads of free time that I have (note sarcasm) and some extra work appropriate clothes, since Old Navy was having a decent sale. Although honestly I think I probably have more than enough tops now, probably did even before I went shopping. Whoops. I bought them with the feeling that I could just return them within 90 days if I felt I didn't have to have them, but of course, now lazy me is thinking I probably won't return anything because it's too much effort. Those were the clear things I wanted, but of course, in shopping the sales there were plenty of other cute things on sale. I popped into Bath and Body Works, where I generally never go, and bought a cute fox and bunch of little antibacterial hand lotions, and got a nice big bottle of free lotion. Probably don't need any of it, but I always feel like I want hand sanitizer in my car especially after checking tire pressure etc and I never have any! So of course I was thinking, if I just buy it then I can have some for my car, some for my purse, some for sitting in my desk and I get my hands dirty. And especially with a cute fox holding my hand sanitizer, I couldn't go wrong! Have I used any of it? Nope. Gah. May need to return.

My second trip(s) were to Barnes and Noble. I bought my stress book that I had staked out from the week before but I love browsing book stores. Especially since Barnes and Noble has lots of cool items besides books. I spent a good half hour eyeing all the pretty journals and planners. Call me a weirdo but I just love looking at journals and notebooks and planners. They're all so pretty. I think it's like a weird addiction or something. If I had the extra money I would buy some since they are just gorgeous. But I have nothing to put in them! I bought a couple journals at Target a couple years back because I couldn't resist- and of course, they're blank. Nothing to put in them, and I hate to mar the pages with gobbledegook. Ditto with a planner. I always used to buy them for school- of course you needed a planner! And even in the beginning of college I would still buy them, because I used to be one of those huge nerds who loved school supplies for some odd reason. I'd use them diligently for the first month or so, and then I would just stop writing assignments in them. 

http://img1.imagesbn.com/p/9780594516408_p0_v1_s600.JPG (Barnes and Noble). Just look at it- isn't it so pretty? If I could get myself to diligently plan and write in it, I would get this in a heartbeat.

If I could somehow think of what to fill up journals with, I'd buy so many. But seeing as how the few I have just sit around unused, I can't really justify buying any more of them.

The other things I love looking at at Barnes and Nobles is the toys/games. And the Pop Funko figures. They're just so freaking adorable. I bought a spiderman for my boyfriend, and a rock star Hello Kitty for my sister. They have so many cute ones- Disney characters and Star Wars, superheroes, TV characters, you name they've probably got it. When I saw the minions I just couldn't help myself. It's totally unnecessary I know, but seeing my little happy minion just makes me smile, and I figured, after working 12+ hours a day, seeing something that makes me smile continuously cannot be a bad thing. So with my second B&N coupon, I just had to pick up the last little minion on the shelf. Although it's probably the most unnecessary thing I picked up, it's also the one item I will not consider returning.

While most people use retail therapy to relax themselves and feel better, for me it's only a temporary relief. I love shopping and window shopping, but after I spend the money, 9 times out of 10 I end up feeling guilty for spending money when I realistically shouldn't be. I have no income and technically am chilling on lots of loans. But as my boyfriend says, I should just spend a little bit to make me happy now.

If only I could stop wasting time obsessing over journals I will probably never write in if bought I could be more productive and give surgery the attention it needs. Procrastination is of course, way more fun though. But I guess now it's time to stare at my minion and get back to hitting the books.