Well, I guess unfortunately this turned out to be more like a four year circle than I would have liked. Yesterday I found out I was rejected from CU. Not even waitlisted, no, but flat out denied. And yes, I will admit, there were a ton of tears and frustrations pouring out. I cried so much on the way home from picking up my mom yesterday afternoon that my nose got so plugged that I actually gave myself a headache, probably from lack of oxygen. Pathetic I know, but I just wanted to go here that badly. And truthfully, perhaps I did get my hopes up a bit too much. I mean, you're supposed to have the best chance at getting into your state school for heaven's sake. So yes, perhaps a touch cocky? Or no, not cocky but definitely a bit too hopeful.
I know in a ton of ways I'm still incredibly lucky, I did get into medical school, and unlike undergrad, I actually have a choice of where I want to go. But I'm kind of bummed, that I have a choice between two sort of low tier schools. I loved CU and it's especially hard when you hear of the people you know celebrating cuz they got into that exact same school. Sad day.
But I do admit I'm feeling a lot better about it. The road's gonna be a lot tougher, but it's still very walkable. And it's amusing to me how some good things can still come of it. I was so depressed yesterday I passed on going to the hospice to visit my patient, even though I had it all planned. But today, I got this call saying the hospice has the Norwalk virus, which is apparently a highly contagious virus that gives you bad food poisoning. So I guess it would've been likely that I would've gotten it had I come in yesterday like I would have if I had gotten into CU. Ha! Sort of an amusing thought :)
So unfortunately I've got to make the hard decision I didn't want to make, but I'm heavily heavily leaning on going to Chicago over New York. But if Temple comes through for me (fingers tightly crossed on this one, please please please!) then Philly it is!! But for now I just gotta grin (or maybe grimace a bit) and bear it, and move on. And I hope people visit me in Chicago or PHilly, wherever I go :)
2 comments:
Oh boooo. But it's ok! I'll visit you in Chicago, whether I get into U of I or not, lol ^_^
And yay for not getting the virus... haha
All I could think about is... it's CU's lost not accepting you =_= But I'm really sorry :( I had no idea you wanted to go to CU that bad. and no you are not pathetic. You are FAR from pathetic. and I didn't think that was cocky... at first I thought CU was my backup school -__- (after the phone interview I was like uh-oh). I'm still a little stunned by the news... like you said, you should have better chances going in-state....
Cheer up Kelsey! you still have other schools waiting for you to decide whether you're gonna pick them or not :D And I will keep my fingers crossed for Temple!!
I'm sorry I haven't been reading your blog... Especially when you're always so supportive with my blogs. I should've known better than to rely on the dashboard.
*HUGS* I will see you this Sunday yes yes? :)
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