I feel like everytime I look forward to something, a Friday night, looking good for something, or, more likely, someone, it always backfires somehow. Or when I hope that I get out of class or work early, it always feels like time is DRAGGING, or I'm at work twice as long as I expected to be.
Like today. I thought I'd be out of work in an hour and a half at the latest. Wrong. I was there three freaking hours, isolating DNA out of 18 freaking e.coli. Why did I take this job again? Why am I not getting paid? Grr.
I was expecting this year to be different for sure, but definitely not in the way that it is now. I haven't seen half the friends I made last year, and I feel like I've already ran into my first big hill to climb. And I feel like although it's not that big, it's pretty f-ing slippery and I'm kinda falling down it a lot. Or stumbling over rocks that have just spontaneously popped up. And the worse thing about it? It's only been two weeks. I'm not supposed to feel this way until the first midterms hit.
No more cakewalk classes for me anymore :( Even physics I'm kinda struggling through. Even band, I'm having to push really hard to practice even fifteen minutes every other day.
Sometimes I feel kinda like Pip. Except he sorta became an ass for a while there. Wonder if I'm the same way.
2 comments:
Oh Pip. Definitely not the smartest cookie.
As I told Rohini I think this is just a slump...but in a few weeks I am sure that it will work itself out and you both will not feel so frazzled/let down.
It seems like the expecations-that-backfire thing happens to me a lot... especially because I build things up in my head to extravagant proportions and then they are never even halfway met. I think thats the problem..our expectations are too high. It doesn't mean you need to lower them...just redefine them maybe.
lol this looks familiar. ;)
i feel ya, kid.
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