Sometimes I wonder what happened to me since I turned 16. I mean, up until then things were always pretty good, generally speaking. But things just don't turn out the way I hoped anymore. I was trying to fill out the form for teacher recs, and I have no accomplishments. And everything I tried out for last year I didn't get. I guess that's part of growing up, huh. But if that's the case, I'd rather be young and innocent for a little while longer. If someone finds the way to live a good life, let me know.
Actually, until yesterday, my idea of how certain things were going to be were pretty much dashed. Like Homecoming. On the whole, a good, fun time. But somehow, I pictured it to be better than last year's because everyone was coming this time. Not the case. And Friday. Picturing lots of fun for two hours skating, playing laser tag with two friends. You know, a chance for me to hang out with different people for a change. Reality: two boring hours sitting at a desk daydreaming. But yesterday was a good time, just like I had hoped. So thanks Ozzie. I saw my first rated R movie without any parents, and playing Catchphrase was a nice end to the day.
I knew Rabah was right when she said this year would be all about the little things. I just didn't know how right. I mean, true, it's only been a month, but still. The big stuff I was looking forward to so far have been sort of a let down, and all the memorable stuff have been little in actuality. So I guess I'm stuck here, waiting for another little thing to mark down in my life's timeline and make a little blip in my otherwise boring life. If someone finds the secret to living life happily, let me know. Because at dinner last night, I realized that I'm kind of a negative person. My first thoughts to 8th and 9th grade were all negative. And I know that while they sucked and I laugh about it now, there must have been some happy moments there. Right? It'd be too sad if all I remembered from my high school days were about how unhappy they were. Is it too late to start sugar coating memories?
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making new friends, kels?
There are so many little moments we enjoy. But I know what ur feeling, because I feel the same way. There have been awesome high school moments. But there hasn't been a time period that I can point back to and say "That was it. That was the time of my life."
What's the secret to living a happy life?
I believe there are three rerquirements:
1. Have loyal friends and family, and be loyal in turn to them.
2. Stand up for what you believe, no matter how many may oppose you.
3. Follow your heart and listen to your dreams to wherever they take you.
But I could be wrong; i usually am.
Aw Kels, I couldn't relate anymore any better than right now.
I looked forward to all the big moments (so far) in high school as being the best and the most memorable, but it has been a letdown like you said. And it has been the little things that have been really memorable and special.
And I realize that I always sugarcoat my memories. Hm.
But we'll have a good time this year Kelsey.
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